-gets ice for Vio's head- Don't hurt yourself~ ;__;
Ugh, I dunno... I-I just feel really useless sometimes. I try to do a lot of things but I can never finish almost anything I start no matter how much I try to stop putting it off, even if other people are relying on me to do it (for example, somebody's otos or a UST they asked me to make for them). I'm worried that my friends are mad at me about that and because I always forget to call/IM them, and I'm /really/ worried about school starting again in a month because if I want enough scholarship money to go to at least a decent college I'm going to have to get all 'A's next semester, and I can never remember all those little details for the tests, and I don't know if the ADD medication is going to make much of a difference besides keeping me awake during class. And then there's my former best friend who of course I /had/ to fall for and mess everything up, we're having at least a couple of classes together and I'm still not over her at all even if she doesn't care about me anymore, and I don't know if having to see her all the time is going to affect me as badly as it did last year. I'm worried that I can't write music anymore because I haven't been able to write a whole song in months and I won't have time to once school starts, and that I'll never get my license because I get so freaked out trying to remember all the rules that I've failed the test twice, and that I won't be able to enjoy all the fun things about senior year because I can't imagine doing them without my best friend.
tl;dr About this time last year I was the happiest I'd ever been, I can't believe everything went downhill so fast, I know the only way out is forward but I'm still scared.
-takes fictional shot of water- Thanks Aster... Sorry for rambling, I hope this isn't just for UST-related sorrows. ;___;