I never wanna sing again.

I'm absolutely depressed as hell. I can't sing for peanuts (especially in English which is ironic). The worst part of it is that I can't sing any of the songs I actually like (STEP TO YOU, Shangri-La, etc) orz I hate how my voice sounds. Don't even dare try to tell me otherwise.

Also I don't want to work with UTAU anymore. I can't think of anything to do with 'em. I can't even write my own songs. And I know people hate Kii. Nobody needs to tell me that.
I don't even know why I try at all. Perhaps I'm giving myself a purpose in life. I hate my (lack of) life and myself, as well as my mother. Especially my mother.
I'll still be here, but I won't really do anything. Like usual.

; A; Don't be all pessimistic. *hugtackles Tsumanne*

You know we love Kii, so at least don't say that one D<

I suck at cheering people up otherwise, so... *passes cookies, sniffle*

I'm very sorry to hear that, aw.
I'm one of your youtube subscribers and I like to see your UTAU and singing videos (even if I don't comment much... too shy and no idea what to say, sorry about that... I kinda feel like I shouldn't comment on any video because I'm "out of the place") but if you have no fun using UTAU or singing I understand your decision even if it's sad.

I'm quite depressed right now too so I understand how you feel... but I think it's just the time of the year for me.
I hope you will get soon fine and cheerful again.

Maybe in that moment you feel better you can enjoy this hobby again with us, who knows.

-I'm a lot worse than anybody cheering people... I read my message and it sounds very depressing, agh. I wish this post don't make you feel worse, sorry. I can't say what I want to say. Ignore me, please orz-

NOES!

Will it help if I use Kii in something?

I will miss your UTAUs...

@Halo: B-but nobody comments on her anymore D:>

@irei1as: You needn't be afraid to comment on my videos, I don't bite xD actually, I'm pretty shy myself.

@Smeen: It probably would help... and don't worry, I won't take down my UTAUloids.

To be honest, UTAU *is* fun for me most of the time; singing, not so much. I might get back into using UTAU and posting videos again, but singing is a no-go for me. I might take the month off to not use UTAU. Or at least until my school holidays start (which thankfully is just in a couple of weeks).

Oh, Tsumanne, I always forget you're Australian too XD
Yay! Holidays!

And... That doesn't mean noones likes her, you know? I used to NEVER comment, no matter how much I like the video. D;

Oh, and the whole singing thing? If you're really in the mood, just belt out some tunes into REAPER/Audacity. Then delete them without listening to them, play them back and laugh at them, autotune them, add effects, whatever. You never know, you might surprise yourself eventually (how I learned to sing again, lol).
And don't EVER worry if something "doesn't suit your voice" or similar. D; Who cares, as long as you have fun SINGING it? Even if the result is horrible. (Which, when you sing, isn't too bad, in all honesty XD)

I can't sing when I'm recording myself OTL I don't know why but I can't sing great when I'm recording. I don't know how to Autotune either :< I can't even get Gsnap to show up in Audacity, nor do I know how to work the REAPER effects in general.

And how could you forget I'm Australian when it says so on my location? xDD

I really feel bad that my shyness made you feel like that. I'm really sorry.

From now on I'll try to comment on every video I see.
I doubt the UTAU comunity is going to be any better with my lame or wrong critiques and boring comments around but I guess they can just mark me as spam, block me or delete my suscription from their channel.

It's not your fault D: It's my mother and her LOVELY ability to make me feel horrible and emotionally disturbed when I'm depressed and moody. And the worst part is I don't think she really cares about my mental state.

But it helped.
I feel the one that does no good shares some guilty with the one that does wrong.

I guess I'm kinda "Ai Kaga" style *shrugs*. It's ok, really.

i agree that people love Kii, when i pull up videos of her i see, "I like/love this voice" "you did a great job with voicing her"

Yeah, but those comments are from a long time ago - Kii's latest videos barely have any comments at all ): I'd like to have some feeling that Kii hasn't been forgotten